Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Everyday Behaviour


Hellotothejello :)

Everyday is very mediocre for me. Waking up at seven (oh yes) in time to catch Michael Smith's "Chef at Home" while snacking on my oat bran with banana and coffee.
Yeah, the low-calorie thing is not working for me that much. So, switching for more veges and fruits. Sort of my "goal" this month. I'm that free, thank you. Hee :)

And I've started driving lessons! Which sadly, freaks the wits outta me.
On my very first lesson itself, my instructor allowed me to drive from Kelana Jaya all the way home. The cars on my left & right are like hunters coming after me. I'm still learning, but I don't think I'm learning well. Even my instructor's scared.

Well, I do grip the steering wheel tightly with all 10 fingers and have the habit of pressing the clutch and the car engine dies. My bad ;)

Other than that, I've been watching old movies, trying to catch all the cooking shows on TV as well as attending to Yahoo! Food for Martha Stewart's recipes & my ever famous Sims2 :D
I'm on a self-made housing project. Hee.

I'm still researching on recipes which are easy and in which the ingredients can be found from the shelves (: and of course low-fat.


Currently downloading The Forgotten & Steel Magnolias.
I have no interesting posts, but maybe I'll blog on Saturday after a Wedding which Dad is emcee-ing & the BEADS outing. HEE :D

I'm craving for Mcds at this moment.

Hmm, Mcdelivery tomorrow?


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Some things weren't meant to be.

Like the kite, its not meant to stay on the ground.

But, we know better. :)

Songofthemoment.

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muchlove.*

Friday, March 21, 2008

Only Hope

"For God loved us so much, that he gave his only son to die on the cross"

Good Friday today, but a sudden change this year. My parents are busy working, and can't make it for the obligation mass. Its so different not going for mass, hopefully Mum can come back early a lil to go for mass. I'm on the fasting mode now till 7.00pm before a vegetarian dinner since strictly no meat today.

Somehow, I feel moodless & bored. There's nothing much for me to do. Hopefully my plan with Jane works tomorrow! CHUA JANE LOUISA SAYANG I MISS YOU :D

And, KUANJOANNESAM, TRUCKLOADS OF MISSES HERE!


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Since I'm bored, I'll start my blabbers.
So, two movies down.

I would give positive reviews for both movies! :)

The Jane Austen Book Club was inspiring in a way. Its like, the lives of these 6 ladies reflects the main character in all 6 books written by Jane Austen. I thought Prudie's (Emily Blunt) character stood out. Plus, Emily Blunt, to my opinion, reflects a lil of Audrey Hepburn. Such sharp features.

27 Dresses. Completely a romantic+comedy flick. The climax was heart wrenching, but the ending was absolutely beautiful. James Mardsen was cute :)

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The Zara flatties sdidn't work out. But I manage to buy pointy flatties and my much-awaited heels from Vincci :) brother picked out the heels for me! And he's been sorta girly these past few days.

Argh. I miss Big Apple + Eating freely + Mcds + Kfc + Waffle+ Pizza + CHEESE NAAN!
Sadly, I put myself in a healthy low-calorie diet for awhile now. Not sure if its working.
I don't think so. Since I'm eating sugary stuff. And I'll be stuffing myself the next two days since I'm following the parents to a potluck tomorrow + Easter lunch on Sunday.

Can't wait for Easter! :D

Lilian, I miss you much!
Tree,Car,Tofu! Where have you been ? missyouthree :)

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Another tag found.

1. Full name: Sabrina Sarah Louis
2. Name backwards: siuoL haraS anirbaS
3. Were you named after someone?: Nope!
4. Meaning of name: Err. No idea.
5. Nickname: Sabby. Sab. Cow? (Havent heard that in ages!)
6. Screen Name: sabrinasarah
7. Date of Birth: 10 October 1990
8. Place of birth: At a clinic.
9. Nationality: Malaysian.
10. Current location: Living room.

11. Star sign: Libra
12. Religion: Christian.
13. Current Height: 167/168 cm
14. Current weight: 53kg?
15. Shoe Size: 9/10.
16. Hair Color: Black.
17. Eye color: Black.
18. Who do you look like: My brother
19. Inner or outer: Inner
20. Lefty or righty: Righty.

21. Gay, straight, bi or others: Straight
22. Best friends: The list is endless.
23. Best friends you trust most: Chiawyee.Lilian.Jane.KM.Khei.RinnyWani.Dina :)
24. Favourite pals: All of 'em?
25. Best friend of opposite sex: Its not just a friend, its FRIENDS :D
26. Best buddies: SAME THING OMG!
27. Boyfriend or girlfriend: None :)
28. Crush: ;)
29. Parents: LOVE :D
30. Worst Enemy: No Idea?

31. Favourite online guy: What?
32. Favourite online girl: NO IDEA.
33. Craziest friend: Khei.SAMANTHA! :D
34. Advice Friend: Chiawyee.Lilian.
35. Loudest Friend: Radio?
36. Person you cry with: Chiawyee. Cynthea (omgwhereareyou?)
37. Any sisters: 1.
38. Any brothers: 1.
39. Any pets: Cat!
40. Any disease: Eczema.

41. Pager: None
42. Personal phone line: Does the handphone count?
43. Cell Phone: Nokia 5300 :)
44. Lava Lamp: Nope
45. Pool or Hot tub: Hot tub!
46. A car: No idea!
47. Your personality: One of a kind?
48. Driving: Not just yet :)
49. Room: Shared with sister.
50. What's missing: Good food :) probably a boyfriend?

51. School: No school for the moment.
52. Bed: In the room?
53. Relationship with parents: Great!
54. Believe in yourself: Sometimes.
55. Believer in love at first sight: Not really.
56. Good listener: Averagely.
57. Get along well with parents: Yeah!
58. Save e-mail/msn convos: Nope.
59. Pray: Yes :)
60. Believe in reincarnation: Nope.

61. Make fun of people: Haha. Hard to avoid sometimes.
62. Like to talk on the phone: Yeah!
63. Want to get married: Uncertain.
64. Like to drive: Starting to :)
65. Motion Sickness: Nada
66. Eat stem of broccoli: Yeap.
67. Eat chicken with fork: Yes.
68. Favourite color: Shades of red & green. Grey!
69. Type with your fingers on home role: whaaaat?
70. Sleep with stuff animals: Unashamed of it, but yeah!

71. Next to you: Grandma
72. On the walls of your room: A wall shelf and a white board.
73. On your mousepad: No mouse pad.
74. Dream car: Not thinking about it yet.
75. Dream date: Too early to tell.
76. Dream honeymoon spot: Anywhere with old,nostalgic sceneries.
77. Dream husband or wife: Too early to tell.
78. Bedtime: 11-12.
79. Under your bed: Dust.
80. Single most important question: Has life been treating you well?

81. Bad time of the day: Binging on food and feeling guilty the next.
82. Your worst fear: Disappointing people, repeating mistakes.
83. The weather: Cloudy & dark.
84. Time: 1602
85. Date: 21st March
86. Best trick did one some: Dont remember.
87. Theme song: S.o.t.M ;)
88. Hardest thing about growing up: Accepting changes
89. Funniest experience: Loads of 'em.
90. Scariest experience: I wouldnt call them scary.

91. Silliest thing you have ever said: Haha, not to be revealed.
92. Most desperate and funniest thing I have done to get the opposite sex: Lips are sealed :)
93. Scariest experience while you are with your friends: Cant recall.
94. Worst feeling: Making others upset. Moodless & depressed over lil things.
95. Best feeling in the world: Happiness & Whole :)
96. Favourite subject: Err.
97. Favourite teacher: No teacher for the moment.
98. Favourite Band: One Republic. Evanescence. Coldplay.
99. Favourite Singer: ColbieC.Michael Buble.
100. Choose 8 people to do this quiz:Lil. Rinny. Shuhann.Huizhi. Anyone reading. :)

Muchlove.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Freshman

Firstly, Congratulations to Ethan & Khei Sze for passing their driving exams! :)
Proud of you both.

Currently downloading The Jane Austen Book Club. Not sure if its a hit, but the movie title sounds interesting. (:

Well, at least I do have something to look forward to. Mum + Her boss invited me to join them on a trip to Vietnam next month. Dad says its a shopping haven there (cause it is a lil cheaper) and I've seen presenters raving about Vietnamese food on TV. Hee, I can't wait!

Right now, I'm doing some research on food on the net, hence the link at the side. Trying to switch to healthy meals now after all the sugar binging last week when I came back from NS.
Hopefully I'll be loyal to it. I'm even planning meals now! Mum thinks I'm crazy but my sister is suddenly a lil attracted to my meal planning habit. (: Dad thinks I'll look like some street beggar if I don't eat, when in fact I DO eat alot when he's at work. Nyehehe.

Anyhoo, I copied this from random blogs.

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First Name : Sabrina.
Nickname :Sabby.
Name you wish you had : Noelle
What do people normally mistake your name as : No idea
Birthday :10th October
Birthplace : PJ
Time of Birth : For my own knowledge.
Single or taken : Single
Zodiac sign :Libra

Your Appearance
How tall are you -:167cm.
Wish you were taller :Yeah. Maybe, 170cm? :)
Eye color : Dark brown
Eye color you want : I'm happy the way it is.
Natural Hair color : Black.
Current Hair color : Black.
Short or long hair : Short.
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color : Nope.
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair : Last September when I bobbed it :)
Glasses or contacts : Neither
Do you wear make-up : Nope. Just lipgloss.
Ever had hair extensions : Nope.
Paint your nails :Of course!

In The Opposite Gender
What color eyes : Natural.
What color hair :Black or Blackish-brown.
Shy or Outgoing : Outgoing.
Looks or personality : Both.
Sexy or Cute : Cute
Serious or Fun : Serious + Fun.
Older or Younger than you : Preferably older
A turn on : A smile + a helping hand.
A turn off : Short tempers

This or That
Flowers or Chocolate : Chocolates anytime.
Pepsi or Coke : Pepsi.
Rap or Rock : Rock
Relationship or One night stand : Relationship
School or Work : School.
Love or Money : Love.
Movies or Music : Music
Country or City :City
Sunny or Rainy days : Sunny + Rainy days.
Friends or Family : Family + Friends. They just go together. (:

Have You Ever
Lied : Sadly, yes.
Stole something : Nope.
Smoked : Nope.
Hurt someone close to you : Regretfully.
Broke someone's heart : Sadly,yes.
Had your heart broken : Yes.
Wondered what was wrong with you :Always.
Wish you were a prince/princess : Honestly no.
Liked someone who was taken : Nope.
Shaved your head : Nope.
Been in love : I think so.
Used chopsticks : Yes.
Sang in the mirror to yourself : Yes.

Favourites
Flower : Lilies
Candy :Not much of a candy person, but Sourtape! :D
Song : Too many to mention but right now its Breathless by Shayne Ward.
Scent : Escada Sunset Heat ,Burberry Brit, Michael Kors' Island.
Color : Navy blue.Greyish silver.Green. Majenta.
Movie : The Joy Luck club
Singer : Colbie Caillat. Michael Buble.
Word : God.
Junk food : Not much of a junkfood lover.
Website : foodnetwork.com
Location : Sweden.
Animal :Puppies. Rabbits.

Ever cried over someone : Yes
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself : Nope.
Do you think you're attractive : Everyone has their own beauty + flaws.
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose : The life I have now :)
Do you play any sports : Not really.

The rules:
Link to your tagger and post these rules.
List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people

1. I'm bored.
2. I love bread more than rice.
3. I miss my friends a whole lot.
4. I'm still thinking about my Zara flatties.
5. I wish I knew how to thank God for every single thing in my life.
6. I need to lose my flabs
7. I still cannot believe I completed NS ( Dramatic moment)
8. I do miss Jane,Joanne,Sam&PuiKuan, the Fivesome. :)

8 people I tag:
Lilian;
Sher Rin;
Dinesh;
& anyone who wants to feel up the 5 empty spaces to tag.

muchlove*

Sunday, March 16, 2008

You Don't Know Me

The weekend was taken up by shopping trips :)



Saturday, Mum & I hit Damansara Uptown to check out the boutiques. Somehow, their concepts are the same, but very chique clothes indeed! We spent the entire afternoon there, walking from store to store. Mum & I were a teeny bit satisfied with our purchases, but one thing that wasn't checked from my list were footwear! :( the worst thing for me. My feet are huge, so sizes are hard to get.



NigelDS scared me off by saying I might just have to get a Cinderella shoemaker. veryfunny.



After 3 months of distress, I finally got a good hair cut. Well, it wasn't the best, but certainly better than before. And I have a teensy fringe now :) I still have my hair curler + straightener to save me if I do have more bad hair days. Ironically, my sister thinks that the straightener is her best friend now.



Sunday. After church + breakfast, Sister joined in for the ladies shopping trip. Kor backed out after knowin Cheh was going. I wonder why he can never stand the thought of us shopping. Mum said it would be good training, especially when he's gonna get a girlfriend (when he turns ...)


Owh, and I never knew he joined the gym! Freaky.



So, the shopping trip was successful indeed. However, I still couldn't find any reasonable footwear, EXCEPT :


THE ZARA BLACK FLATTIES OMG !
So shiny, super comfy, FITS MY HUGE FEET! :D


but,


for a price like that, I think its a lil hefty.
If I did buy it, I would probably just frame it up instead of wearing it.



Mumm&Sis told me to think about it. I might just wait for the sale.Hopefully it'll wait for me.



Had dinner at Dragon-i. Food was alright, a lil overrated if you'd asked me. I still prefer Damansara Uptown's Chinese food. Service was really good. :)



I finally got my hands on my cure for excessive boredom for the next 4 months.



So excited! :D


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Driving lessons are gonna start soon.
College starts in July.
My cooking+baking spree starts NOW :D

I'm still in the mood to shop.
ahem, Lilian? (:






HELLO THE 12 OF YOU. WHEN ARE WE GONNA HAVE OUR SHOGUN SESSION?

I'M EAGERLY WAITING & CRAVING FOR JAPANESE FOOD! :D


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You give your hand to me
Then you say hello
I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well
But you don't know me.
i'llmissyou.thanksforeverything.
songofthemoment.



muchlove.
PS : All the best to the 2nd batch of NS trainees! :)

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Realize

March 12.

Barely 24 hours of mixed emotions from NS, I had to face a bigger expectation. As every "results day" goes, dear ol' sister sent me to school and decided to stay to content the excitement/nervousness. Stepping into the sombre halls made me feel like home again. The first person I saw was Chiaw Yee, and she didn't seem to happy at first. My heart pounded faster, though my expression didn't tell. Puan Wong looked every inch the same, and she handed me the slip.

I didn't know what to expect. Honestly, I never knew what my expectations would be.
Not even from my parents. But I was satisfied. Cheh was anxious to know of my results and she walked to the hall (surprisingly). We exchanged a small hug and she was absorbing all the surroundings of tears/laughter/smiles. Heck, it was her school before.

I always remembered what Mum said to me.

"What's done is done. It may seem so very important now because you'd think you should have done better and that the results in your hands are not as competent or compatible with your friends. You have to understand, you don't have the same mind or brain as anyone else. If everyone was the same, there wouldn't be such thing as an exam. College and further education is more important. SPM is just a cert to certify that you've completed high school"

And what Cheh said to me.

"I don't see why you must take so many subjects just to get all the A's. When you go to college, they merely see whether you're eligible to have a cert. Nobody will ask about your SPM results, rather, 'Do you have a Diploma?/Degree?/Masters?/PhD?' "



So well. The afternoon was taken up to have a nice lunch at Sakae Sushi before aimlessly walking around. I spent my family for a thank you dinner at some place in Subang. Scrumptious food I'd say, and pretty reasonable too. I missed us laughing at totally nothing relevant, like how we eat or what we say. Its good to be home (:

Alrighty! Packed day today. Will blog soon.

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If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.
p/s : hope you're doing better :) ;
Much Love

Friday, March 14, 2008

National Service

A lil scoop of my experience. :)
Warning : Long post ahead.

A New Journey

While everyone was preparing for New Year's, I was hovering my heavy bag and even heavier heart to the bus, tears rolling down uncontrollably. I couldn't believe my senses, I was actually leaving for NS, something I've dreaded for a long time. The very first person I met was Juliana, small, timid but with a big heart. We conversed for the entire bus ride, until we reached what we called, "Gates of Hell".

Wirawati's dorms.

The pink building is a resting bay, or Bilik Rehat Wirawati. They have a tv with very poor coverage. This is a reporting station whenever we have night shifts from 0000 til 0600.
I've only been there twice. The only thing I liked about that place was the canvas beds. Mmhmm.



Where we laughed, cried and had to endure the foul smell of "shit water". One thing was, the pipes always burst. We even had mini snacking & gossip parties here. Our Company trainer, Cikgu Lynn declared our dorm as the noisiest & fattest with the amount of food we bring in everyday.


Wake Up Call

Our days start at 0500, and we gather at 0600 to sing Negaraku and the NS song from Monday to Friday. Next was PE lessons. I'd say, I became a teenie bit stronger due to PE. One thing was, we had the Head of the Discipline ,Cikgu Abdullah as our Company trainer and he pushes us everytime. While we thought it was ridiculous at first, he did much good for us. We even got to run 2km on certain days through the rubber estates.

The entire morning would be taken up by classroom sessions. I must stress over and over again, and I'm very sorry to say this, but OMG these sessions could be the very cure for insomnia.
I can't use my fingers to count the number of times I've slept in these classes. Nevertheless, Character Building was the most enjoyable class, and it did change my perspectives on certain things.

Afternoons were the times I looked forward to. I don't mind the hot scorching sun (but sometimes, the days get really hot, probably like 35 degrees?). I'm happy so say that I manage to take part in all the activities provided. However, the first few weeks were taken up by theory classes which weren't very boring. But of course, some of us do steal some sleep, and all the trainers had to do was walk with a water sprayer and ice. Nuff said.

Then, it comes to evenings, for our lil sports time. We replace it with snacking time, as usual.
Usually, there shouldn't be any activities after dinner but the head of trainers worries for our safety and gathers us at 9pm for empty talks & watching videos. I think it wasn't such a waste of time, but hell its very tiring. Bedtimes are usually at 2300.
On Sundays, we had our church visits in Kajang. I'm starting to like that church alot, especially their hymms. (: At least I 'll be coming back in May for Ku ku's wedding! Plus, its fully air-conditioned.

The effects of waking up at 0500 for the last two months?
Waking up at 0700 here, without an alarm. Freaky.


The Excitement


Wirajaya Camp.




Hiking up 5km with a very heavy load on our backs wasn't what we imagined it would be. We spent the entire afternoon which was exceptionally roasting our skin alive, just to find our campsite. We had to build our tents before 1800, and it was 1735. We had no choice but to build the simplest camp to last us for a few more hours. My camping partner was Jane, and we had separate duties. We were the last ones to build our camps, since we're both in charge of the "Pembinaan Pangkalan", which means sweeping our campsite and building our toilets. I had no choice, but to use tree branches and no string to support the roof of our tent.

Sadly, we didnt have time to clean so there were pretty much alot of dried leaves and lil teeny worms which made us all icky when we slept with our uniforms and boots

Our mission was to find some gold object using clues given by an agent. We didn't succeed but it was a blessing as well. Why?
In this mission, when the gold object is found, it doesnt mean it already belongs to the winning company. Hell, we were allowed to plan any ambush to steal it! This was mostly favoured by the guys. Some even 'kidnapped' other company members just for the fun of it.

If I could, I would want to do it all over again. :)


M16.





The very first gunshot sent shivers down my spine. Seeing the bullet casing flying out gave such an eerie feeling. It was really as if you were at war due to the echoes of the shots. My hands were literally shaking before and after using the gun.

I suck at aiming, but I didn't know I was that bad till I shot my neighbour's target, giving her extra points. :(

It was definitely a once in a lifetime thing, which I'll surely never forget.
Including taking an oath to swear that we would not take any empty bullet casings home.

Fearful moments

During the 3rd week of camp, the medical officials were dealing with our health papers. Among the groups of people who had to be deferred were asthmatics. Joanne & Jane were called up but thankfully, they could stay. I had sleepless nights due to my worries about getting deferred. I really wished that I didn't write it in my form but it was a lil too late. Mum&Dad were worried themselves. The chaotic matter stopped the following week, with about 50-60 ppl being sent home on medical issues. Honestly, I did hope to get deferred at first, but after seeing so many people leave, the feeling died.


Along came the conjuctivitis scare. Unfortunately, I contracted the disease and had to stay in the sick bay for a night. I literally begged to be checked out. The medical sergeant was nice enough to let me go. I hated the nurse there though. She was pretty stuck up.

And, what is a camp without some spooky dramas, eyh? (:


Family Visits


My parents came for every single visit, till the very last week. I'm always a lil embarassed cause when they come, they'll bring the whole house with them. But, those were the things that made me feel at home. Food and everything relevant. My sister came once, and boy , I never knew I've missed her the most ! One thing bad about the visits : I'd always end up welling up with tears.

"Lain daripada yang lain"

This was my tagline in camp. I was their first Eurasian trainee, which made me very alien there. There was once, they had to do some statistic stuff, and when they called up the Chinese group, I was the only one sitting on the floor. Everyone was staring, including the trainers. One of them actually thought I was deaf and started doing sign languages to me! The trainers made me sit on stage, all alone with everyone scratching their heads and asking me what race I was.

Since Serani wasn't a common thing, they decided on the tagline above. Or if the trainers forgot my name, the next best name was "Orang Serani! Keluar Baris!". But, it was always a funny moment.

My Support System

To get through 10 weeks of endurance wasn't by my own backbone alone. I couldn't thank God enough for keeping me safe every single day & for always listening to my very draggy prayers. I developed a habit of praying in the morning, and hopefully it'll stay with me.

My family. God knows how much I've missed them. I'm thankful for my parents & sister who constantly replied my messages without fail. I didn't sms my bro that much, since he was busy with his cadet training. Haha, I practically ranted about everything, including my constipation problem! I think they're gonna keep a distance from me now. Hee :)

There's ChiawYee, Lillyboo, WeiKit & Weng Hoe too! Gosh, not being around the usual 12 made me feel all weird! Haha, I missed the lameness and their presence throughtout camp. Missed them heap loads! But of course, a big SMOOCH to them for constantly updating me and giving me moral support. LOVE YOU!

Not forgetting, a special someone who moved back for awhile and kept me occupied with very silly stories & emotional talks. You know who you are.I appreciate your sweet messages and songs of the moment, remember? (: *love.

Introducing, the Fivesome.

Lee Pui Kuan. Samantha Tai Sze-Yun.Chua Jane Louisa. Joanne Wong Mei Foon.


We never left each other's side. Usually, people would spot us cause we always come in five or either one of us together. They were my sisters who took care of me, cheering me up whenever I'm down and always being patient with my endless worries of almost everything. I'm truly blessed to have them in my life now, and thank God we're all from Selangor! Gosh, I can't imagine if we had to be separated by a state. Love them so much! :)

Life After NS

I have to say, I regretted being such a big baby about NS. It was truly an experience worth remembering. NS did test my limits of patience, confidence and independence. I did not waste my time there and I feel fuller inside . I'm very thankful to God , my family & friends who supported me all the way through.

Indeed, I realised the hardship of surviving out there alone. Washing your own clothes, ironing, cleaning, polishing your own boots, enduring alot of self resiliance and all of that. If it weren't for NS, I'd still be the lazybum I used to be. Not only mentally, but physically as well. I kept in mind that God has made plans for me, and I see it now.

In fact, I do miss camp but I think one trip is good enough for me. *winks. I'm officially an ex trainee of National Service 2008.

Much Love.