Realize

March 12.

Barely 24 hours of mixed emotions from NS, I had to face a bigger expectation. As every "results day" goes, dear ol' sister sent me to school and decided to stay to content the excitement/nervousness. Stepping into the sombre halls made me feel like home again. The first person I saw was Chiaw Yee, and she didn't seem to happy at first. My heart pounded faster, though my expression didn't tell. Puan Wong looked every inch the same, and she handed me the slip.

I didn't know what to expect. Honestly, I never knew what my expectations would be.
Not even from my parents. But I was satisfied. Cheh was anxious to know of my results and she walked to the hall (surprisingly). We exchanged a small hug and she was absorbing all the surroundings of tears/laughter/smiles. Heck, it was her school before.

I always remembered what Mum said to me.

"What's done is done. It may seem so very important now because you'd think you should have done better and that the results in your hands are not as competent or compatible with your friends. You have to understand, you don't have the same mind or brain as anyone else. If everyone was the same, there wouldn't be such thing as an exam. College and further education is more important. SPM is just a cert to certify that you've completed high school"

And what Cheh said to me.

"I don't see why you must take so many subjects just to get all the A's. When you go to college, they merely see whether you're eligible to have a cert. Nobody will ask about your SPM results, rather, 'Do you have a Diploma?/Degree?/Masters?/PhD?' "



So well. The afternoon was taken up to have a nice lunch at Sakae Sushi before aimlessly walking around. I spent my family for a thank you dinner at some place in Subang. Scrumptious food I'd say, and pretty reasonable too. I missed us laughing at totally nothing relevant, like how we eat or what we say. Its good to be home (:

Alrighty! Packed day today. Will blog soon.

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If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And will never find another

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder if

We missed out on each other now.

p/s : hope you're doing better :) ;

Much Love